Month: January 2010


What’s up? Not much, really. Work chugs along. Bebeh chugs along. Trying to get him on more of a schedule, but he’s all over the place. Most nights asleep by 10:30. I keep wanting a little “me” time, which keeps me up ’till midnight, which means 12-7’s all the sleep I get (he wakes up at 7 regardless of when he goes to sleep, it seems).

I’ve gotta train myself out of it, and just go to sleep when he does. Will come with time.

Been trying to eat breakfast every day. Alton Brown had a thing where he was making smoothies in the morning, and it sounded good, so I’ve been doing that, and it is good. Definitely getting something in the stomach first thing in the morning is good, but like going to sleep, something that’s taking some practice. So far, mango/peach/blueberry/pomegranate = the best combo. Tried blackberries, but too many seeds.

We’ve had raid of biblical proportions, and the downstairs is, thankfully, holding up a-ok. There’s one leak in the garage, but something that the contractor’s going to fix up. The crack in the upstairs window is also a problem, but a fixable, known, minor one.

Been watching Friday Night Lights. Great show. I’m not much for football, but it does remind me that there were a lot of moments in swimming/water polo where I really enjoyed competing with a team. Not a lot of time for that with bebeh around, but I wonder if I’d be able to get something like that at some point in the future…

Hrm. Anything else up? Been playing Army of Two: The 40th Day, which is a huge improvement over the first game. Looking forward to Mass Effect 2, but the chances that I’ll have time to play it any time soon? Zero.


Anyway – things are good! The bebeh is awesome.

Perception Hierarchy

So, one of the things I’ve been thinking about recently, particularly with the new kid, is the difference in a relationship between how I perceive my own behaviour, and how someone else perceives the exact same things.

The thing that really comes to mind are moments in my own development when someone I had either thought highly of, or was in a certain position of either power or respect, said something, what kinds of things I’d latch onto.

It was often strange little things. An opinion about a band from someone who I thought was cool could get me to listen to a band I’d never otherwise have even considered. A small compliment at the right time by someone I respected, and I’d do *anything* for them. It’s not the big things, I don’t think – it’s not when someone sits you down and tells you what or how you should think – but it’s that certain people, in certain positions of my own social hierarchy, could tell me to do something and I’d do it.

And now, I wonder how much of that they were even aware of? I mean, it’s strange to me – I still think of myself as a schmoe, and I think that for the most part, people who interact with me for a while realize that, and take what I say with that certain schmoe-ness. But at the same time, if you just met me, I could conceivably sound pretty authoritative about certain subjects, and I know that I express certain opinions pretty strongly – in the kind of way that I think I responded to when I was younger. So I wonder how the kid will respond to me? What weird little offhand comments will have genuine weight, and shape his thinking, and what “meaningful” discussions slide right off.

I dunno. It’ll be weird finding out.