Man. It’s kinda weird. There are a lot of people I don’t keep in particularly good contact with. It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s simply that I don’t. My cousin, friends from college, some friends from high school, whatever – I hang out with a fistful of people that I hang out with regularly, and that’s about it. Not that that’s a bad thing, and not that I’m in any way dissatisfied with the people I do hang out with. But it’s weird, how “out of sight, out of mind,” can work sometimes.

I mean… I dunno. I have friends who I had a *blast* living with in college, who I care deeply about, yet I don’t talk to them. I realize that must seem like I don’t *really* care deeply about them, then, but that’s not the case. At least, not in my mind. Is it that I don’t *want* to talk to them? Not really. But I’m just not much of a phone person. That’s a pretty big part of it – it just never feels like a real conversation, with these distended voices and such. I guess I’m so used to seeing people & reading their body language, as an integral part of understanding what they’re saying, that a phone conversation just feels incomplete.

Then again, part of me thinks, well, take what you can get, dammit! And there’s a lot to be said for that. It’d be nice to talk to the folks in Boston, or my cousin, or the random other friends I know that are spread out all over the place. But at the same time, they’re probably doing other stuff, too, whatever that is, and I’m not sure a phone call would be the best way they’d want to spend their time, either. But I dunno.

*shrugs*

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