I got an article published in Polygon a while back! posting a link here just in case I ever need to find it again: http://www.polygon.com/2014/1/22/5330576/apples-ios-controller-api-isnt-solving-a-problem-its-opening-a-door
I’m posting from an iMac I finally got set up. Since it’s looking like we’ll be working from home for a while, it’s nice to have a setup with a big monitor & lots of connections to things. It’s now connected to my various music gear, so that’s all nicely integrated.
In general, things are going well. Not a lot to report. Slowly organizing & repairing small bits of the house. Trying to figure out what to do with the backyard. I think I have a good idea of what I want to do next re: work, just a matter of finding the people who will be interested in doing it with me, and figuring out how to fund it. So that’s going to be a lot of fascinating conversations in the next few months, but there are some great options out there, so it’s fun getting those discussions started.
Haven’t gone to a lot of track days recently (though I did paint & “decorate” my helmet for kicks) – most of the week’s spent with the kids (Monday with J, W/F with K, but have been going to the pool in the evenings after picking up J early). It’s been really great getting to spend so much time with them. K’s growing up so fast. He’s got lots more teeth, can walk stably (mostly), and is really starting to understand and speak words. You can ask him to make all kinds of animal sounds, and he loves it.
He loves sleeping a bit less, and that’s probably due to congestion or an ear infection or something, but it still makes nights fairly difficult. 15 months, and he’s still regularly getting up often at night. It’s gotta change sometime, right?
J has been doing really well. He’s a fantastic big brother. If anything, a bit too excited to see K at times, but he’s really gentle, and really forgiving, and has been really generous sharing his stuff & his space, and can understand that some things are now his & K’s rather than just his alone. It can be rough at times, but he’s a trooper.
We recently went to Maui (for vacation) and to Milwaukee (for a friend’s wedding). Both trips were amazing. Maui is gorgeous, the beaches were really nice, and overall, just a very pleasant place to be. Overall, my favorite spot in Hawaii so far is Kailua, but we’ve still got a handful more places to check out before we can say authoritatively. So we’ll have to go back, you know, for science.
Milwaukee was great. The wedding was amazing – always great to see friends finding people that they really fit with (and who are wonderful in their own right, of course). We spent a bunch of time at the Betty Brinn Children’s Museum and Discovery World. Ate at a bunch of good places (All Purpose, with A/K/A, who kindly drove over from Chicago, Honey Pie, and Umami Moto were all standouts), and spent a bunch of time just walking around and seeing something new.
I think next up would be a trip to Australia or Europe. I dunno. I’d love to go back to Helsinki, and I feel like it’d be sensible to try to do some “Tour de Finnish Mobile Developers” and meet “my people”, but it’d be challenging with the kiddos.
It’s nice to blog again. FB & Twitter are great and all, but eventually all that data is going to get lost, which is sad. I like reading over my years-old posts, and remembering what it was like to be then.
We’ve been on vacation in Maui for the last two weeks, and as we’re about to head home, I wanted to write down something I learned last week that was really difficult, both so that I’ll remember it, and so maybe you can learn from my error.
We were staying at a nice place, with a waterslide that led to one of the pools. We ended up here because we thought that J might like the waterslide, since he’s shown so much recent affection for pools and water. It turned out, he was really opposed to trying it, and really scared by it. Because this was really similar to his reaction to going to a pool, at first, I thought it would be good to get him to go on it at least once, and if he didn’t like it, he wouldn’t have to try it again. After much coaxing, he finally went, and he had fun, but didn’t want to go on it again.
The second-to-last day we were at the place, I was tired and irritable, but we were going down to the pool to go for a swim. I thought, “This is the last day we’re likely to go swimming, maybe we should go on the water slide one more time.” So, I asked J if he wanted to go, and he said “no”. I followed that up with a “Come on, the way we get into the pool is by going down the water slide.” That led to a weird standoff, because I didn’t remember the earlier interaction, where that one trip down the slide we’d told him he wouldn’t have to go again. He got confused, and upset – “I just want to go swimming!”, and I thought at the time that he was just being obstinate – after all, he’d enjoyed the time down the slide before, and he was safe – clearly (to me, at the time), he was just being that reflexive scared of doing new things, and I didn’t want to give in to that.
So it became, “If you want to swim, go down the slide or we’re going back in.” The confused look on his face clearly came from the fact that he remembered the earlier interaction, and didn’t understand what was happening. “Okay, we’re going back in. Let’s go,” and I grabbed his hand, and started walking back to the room.
He pulled away, and retreated into himself, and said, “No more dad.”
I can’t describe, accurately, how heartbreaking it is to remember that moment. At the time, I didn’t understand what his motivation was, and I was irritated because he was being “chicken”. But I was wrong, and instead, he just didn’t want to go, and we’d *told* him he wouldn’t have to go, and *I* was the one who was completely fucking things up, and I was in a foul mood.
“No more dad.”
I ended up negotiating with him that we could feed the fish and go swimming tomorrow morning if he promised he’d go down the slide. He promised, and we went back to the pool, played wholeheartedly, and had a wonderful time. One of those kinds of times I’ll always remember, with big laughs, and excitement, and playing until we’re both exhausted.
Later that evening, Ei-Nyung said something that reminded me of the agreement the week before. J had long since gone to sleep, but the rest of the night, I kept going over our whole exchange, and realized how wrong I’d been. I was miserable. How could I have been so *wrong*, and more, so mean about it?
The next morning, when J woke up, I talked to him – just him and me – and told him that I had forgotten that he didn’t have to go down the slide again, and that while I appreciated that he’d promised to do it, he wouldn’t have to, and we’d still go feed the fish and go swimming. He was happy he’d get to do the things, and that was that. We fed the fish, went back to the pool, and had a great time.
But I will never in my life forget the moment he said, “No more dad,” and I hope that I’ll never do that again. I think one of the things to take away from it is that my reading of his reactions isn’t always right. He has a long memory, and an accurate one, and throwaway comments can have a great deal of meaning to him. He can’t always express *why* something is upsetting him, but it doesn’t mean that it isn’t legitimate, or that there isn’t a clear causality – he just can’t express it yet. He’s so articulate that it’s hard to remember sometimes that he’s still just a kid, and sometimes he feels things he can’t yet say.
So, bunch of stuff has happened recently. The biggest weird thing is that I’m no longer part of Self Aware Games or Big Fish. Reflective Games, which was what we were calling ourselves with the new studio, is no more, and that whole experience is behind me. There’s really not much else I can say about that. I loved the teams, and I loved the people I worked with over the last five years.
One thing that I’m really looking forward to, though, is spending more time with J & K. K’s starting to almost talk – he says “Banoon!” for balloon. Also for moon. “Ba!” for Ball. He’s got Mama & Dada most of the time. He *loves* to play with balls. To throw them, to catch them, to bounce them. He’s got this great thing, too, when he’s really excited, where his legs just pogo – you know if he’s really happy when you pick him up, because his legs do this: || <> || <> it’s adorable.
J’s really becoming his own person. He’s going through so much as he grows up – he used to love dinosaurs – would obsess over them, read about them, wanted to do almost nothing else but learn about dinosaurs – and one day, it all stopped. It’s taken a while, but I think that the root of the change was that no one else at his daycare liked dinosaurs, and either he got made fun of, or he didn’t want to be different. Which is really sad. I’ve been trying to convince him that it doesn’t matter what the other kids like, and that if he wants to learn about dinosaurs, we can do that at home as much as he wants. But I think there’s just that peer pressure that’s hard to avoid. We’re also building some pretty complicated Lego sets together. It’s really interesting to me, because when he’s in a good mood, and can focus on it, he’s quite adept at matching up the pieces, finding them, putting the thing together. But you can *see* him get tired doing it, and how he stops paying attention or stops caring. Which is fine – I’m not trying to pressure him into anything (at least not consciously, though I’m sure I am to some degree) – but it’s fascinating to watch him go from excited to having his mind wander off, and then come back to it.
Been going to a bunch of trackdays at Sonoma Raceway, Thunderhill, and Laguna Seca. It’s been a blast. It’s sort of like bouldering in many ways – the track is a problem, and you’ve got to figure out the best way around it. Each corner is a challenge, and there are many different circumstances that dictate the best way to tackle it. You get a lot of visceral physical feedback when you’re doing it right (and wrong). I feel like I’ve learned a LOT, and that every time I go to the track, I get a noticeable step better/faster. It’s also a really fun way to hang out with people – gives you a lot to talk about in between sessions. There are a bunch of folks I know who want to do this sort of thing, and are held back by their car, or the thought that you need previous experience or whatever. You don’t need a crazy car. You don’t need previous experience. There are SO many people who go to these things where it’s clearly a “bucket list” item that they’ve dreamt of for ages. Why wait? Just do it now. That way if you really love it, you get to do it even more!
Anyway. Yeah – kids. Work. Or no work, rather. That’s about all that’s up so far.
I miss my grandfather. He came up in a convo on Twitter completely out of the blue. I remember many things about him, and my time with him, but three stand out:
1.) Him coming to my swim meet. This wouldn’t necessarily be weird, except the least formal he ever got in public was maybe unbuttoning the top button on his suit and loosening his tie. Surrounded by a bunch of adults in sweatsuits and kids running around in speedos, it was an interesting image.
2.) The trip he took me and Kari-Michael Helava on to Finland to visit our relatives and see where that side of our family came from. It was incredibly special to spend time with just him and my cousin, and while I don’t remember *most* of the details of the trip, I remember one night at dinner, he was playing with the breadcrumbs that were left on his plate while we were waiting for the rest of the meal, and I thought it would be funny to shout “DON’T PLAY WITH YOUR FOOD!” the way an adult would have said to a kid (like me) at the time. He laughed, and laughed and laughed. I still have the laplander hat I got on that trip. One of these days, J&K will wear it, and wonder where I got such a weird hat.
3.) One of his visits, just before he & my grandmother left, he sat down on my bed and talked to me. He talked about how I had opportunity to *do* something, and to make a difference in the world, and that it was my responsibility to do so in a positive way. I wish I remembered his exact words, but all I remember is the tone and the reverence I had for him. It took another decade and then some before I felt like I was in a position, or had the opportunity to put his words into action, but I think over the last few years, and now with my kids, that moment is always something that’s in my mind, and something that nudges me, I believe, in the right direction, even when it’s not the easy direction to go.
1a.) The time to leave a job is when you no longer see a way forward.
2.) For a long time, I assumed people in authority positions were there on merit. Rarely so.
3.) For a long time, I assumed people in authority positions were there because they knew things that I could not possibly know. Rarely so. Everyone is a human. They are insecure. Their knowledge is limited. They have the same impostor syndrome that you do.
4.) The difference between a good leader and a bad one is trust.
5.) Don’t be an asshole to people for short-term gain or satisfaction. Be nice. Treat people with respect. Don’t think about a week from now. Think about a decade from now. If you’re building relationships that will last, you’re the tortoise, not the hare.
6.) Don’t waste your time on people who don’t deserve it. Your time and your mental space is valuable. Increasingly so as you get older. You don’t need to maintain a lot of relationships, just the extraordinary ones.
7.) One of the best moments in life is when you talk to someone about an idea, and they immediately make it better. You don’t get that if you keep your ideas to yourself.
8.) You assume you are weak because you see only the parts of other people that are strong. They have the same issues you do, but you don’t see them. They will sympathize with you. They will understand you. They are also weak. You are both strong. Stronger still, together.
9.) You only really know who you are when you have to do something hard. When you’re faced with a difficult choice. Don’t be scared you’ll fail. You will. Learn and make better decisions.
9a.) The more you make the hard decisions, the more you learn about yourself, the easier it is to make more hard decisions. It is a virtuous cycle. All you have to do is start. What is it that you’re thinking about that you haven’t decided on?
10.) Extension of 9: Regret is fine. The only way to live without regret is to have controlled everything in your life. You don’t, but you *think* you do, so there will be things that happen that you regret. Regret is the pain that you carry with you so you don’t make the same mistake again.
11.) It’s not how you do it. It’s why.
12.) You will fail at all of this. I will even fail at having made a list of lasting advice, and some of it I’ll look back on & realize was horribly wrong. The only lasting failure is the inability to learn, or the inability to try again.
13.) In the end, the most important thing about any venture is the people. Find good ones. Don’t let them go. They are the thing that matters.
So, let’s take a previous thought and expand on it a bit.
There is a common “saying”. It pops up again and again in books and discussions of “how to be a (whatever)”. I have seen it most commonly in discussions of “how to be a game designer” and “how to be a writer”. The saying is usually something like this:
“If you want to be a writer, then just start writing. Now you can call yourself a writer.”
So that’s the context. Shows up all over the place. It is not something I’m creating as a strawman, or what have you. The caveat is that the second part is important, because it’s the second part that’s wrong.
The first part is fine – if you want to be a writer, you MUST start writing. If you want to be a game designer, then you MUST start designing games. For both of these, there are theoretically no prerequisites – you can just start doing them.
You’ll just start doing them really badly, and make a lot of stupid mistakes if you don’t do a lot of homework first. If you want to write, read. If you want to design games, play games. But you can’t just do those things casually – you can’t do them as a consumer of media. You have to do them analytically. What do you like? Why do you like it? Do you read things that you don’t like? Do you power through the parts that you don’t like to try to figure out what *someone* saw in this thing?
If you want to create something, you’re not creating things in a vacuum. You’re creating them in the context of everyone else who’s making stuff. And sure, that can be intimidating. But if this is your passion, you’re probably already doing this. Just make sure that you’re putting effort into your consumption, because that’s how you’re going to learn.
The next step, of course, is to do the thing. The magic about writing, or designing games (which is mostly writing unless you’re also a programmer or artist), is that you can just do it. Got a pencil & paper? Great, that’s all you need. Now just start.
But don’t you fucking dare call yourself a writer or a game designer yet.
You’re learning. That’s great. You’re making progress towards your goal. You’re a student. You’re exploring. You may “do” some game design, or you may write a bit. This is essential progress. If you feel like it’s too harsh to say that you can’t call yourself the thing that you want to call yourself, then *fuck you*.
Because you don’t know anything yet.
I can write until my fingers bleed. I can design a thousand games in spec form. I can do this ad infinitum for years on end. And in doing so, I can waste ten thousand hours and not improve at *all*.
There’s another saying, “Practice makes perfect.” It’s nice, right. Put in the time, and you’ll work your way toward perfection. Except it’s total bullshit, and not true even in the slightest.
“Practice makes permament.” I wish I could take credit for that, but I can’t. But this is the right saying. If you practice, and you repeatedly do the same thing over and over, what you’re doing is making it easier and easier for you to continue to do the same thing over and over. So if you’re making mistakes repeatedly, congratulations! You’ve just improved at making those *same mistakes*.
Let’s try a different phrase: “Focused practice with feedback improves your skills.”
First, fuck perfection, nothing’s perfect. Second, you need feedback on your work to make progress. YOU can’t see what you’re doing because YOU’re too invested in it. You know how much work you put in. You know what you were trying to accomplish. You have context and understanding of your work that *no one else has*.
So practice through repetition without feedback is a waste of time. Get feedback. You don’t have to finish your thing to do that. You barely have to start. But seek feedback. Get input. Even if it’s *mortifyingly embarrassing*. I wrote two attempts at a novel via NaNoWriMo (a highly, highly recommended experience to everyone who’s reading this – it completely changed my outlook on creative pursuits, and my *life* as a whole). I managed to finish twice (more on this later), but more than that, I got a few other people to read them and give feedback. This is a *horrifying* process, because I *know* they’re awful “novels”. That’s the nature of NaNoWriMo. You write. You don’t slave over each word, or hand-craft each sentence, because if you do, you won’t finish in time. So you write 50K words, and pray that you’re able to finish.
And when I was done, I showed the result to a few people. And it was, like I said, horrifying. I *know* there are things in there that are embarrassingly awful. I know there are things in there that a 3rd grader wouldn’t write if they spent 5 minutes thinking about it. I didn’t spend 5 minutes thinking about it – I just *wrote*, because that was the nature of the project.
But I got feedback. And that feedback taught me a lot.
I write specs for game designs all the time. I get tons of feedback on them. Sometimes on the content, sometimes on the clarity of the communication itself. Every time I strive to do better. You need that input to improve anything you do. Practice in a vacuum is a waste.
Second, you *must* finish. Let me be clear. I don’t mean you have to sell your novel/game. I don’t mean you have to be a professional. I don’t mean it has to be good. I don’t mean it has to be the epitome of what you were trying to accomplish. I don’t (in this case) even mean that anyone else has played it but you. But *you* have to consider it done.
Because it is absolutely, absolutely trivial to “design a game” via handwaving and grossly wrong assumptions about how things actually work. You can have what you think is an absolutely genius, pristine spec, and the moment someone tries to implement it you find it’s full of contradictions and nonsense. But you don’t find that out *until* someone tries to implement it. You can make paper prototypes, and learn a lot, but you won’t learn what the game will be like when it’s done. You can implement a prototype, and get a “feel” for whether what you’re doing is successful or not, but that’s all it is – a feel.
Your game real until you finish it. Until you finish it, all your assumptions are good. All your thoughts about how things will be are awesome. All your beliefs about how a player will react are spectacular. They’re also almost all wrong.
Put the game into a player’s hands – even your own, though playing your own game isn’t terribly useful (see feedback, above) – and then you’ll start to understand all the ways in which your assumptions don’t work. You’ll understand how players see your game. How they get lost in the UI. How you’re not telling them about what they should be aspiring to. How the controls are confusing. How the things that you thought would be motivating factors don’t motivate them at all. How you thought that green would be distinguishable from the other green over there. How a player doesn’t value the 5 minutes of fun that you’re giving them more than the 5 minutes of fun they’d get staring at a wall.
This is where you learn. This is the feedback. You *only* get this in the most meaningful ways when you’ve said, “Here is the complete experience that I intended to create,” and you get stabbed through the heart. Or you see people understand your vision. Or you create something someone loves.
Or you first get stabbed through the heart, then pick yourself up off the ground, and fix the problems until people understand your vision, then give it the love and craft and attention to detail and devotion and creative spark that turns it into something that someone loves.
Congratulations. You’ve made something. Now you get to give yourself the label.
If you don’t complete your game, you haven’t learned all the important lessons about how to make something that has value to someone. You haven’t learned how to iterate. You haven’t learned where your assumptions have betrayed you. You haven’t learned about how what people want is different than what you thought they wanted. You haven’t learned what it is like to design a game. Or write a novel. Or create anything.
So yes, take that first step. Write. Design games. Be terrible at it. Because first you must jump in and start.
But if you want to call yourself a game designer, or if you want to call yourself a writer, or if you want to call yourself a creator of any kind – finish something. Fight through the hard part. Work though the pain of being wrong, or creating something terrible. But work at it, beat your head against it, drag this thing that you want to make kicking and screaming out of nothing and bend it to your will. Then show it to someone, and take that feedback like a punch to the gut and *get back up* and get back to fucking work until you’ve made the thing that you’re proud of.
Now stamp that label on your bloody chest, and wear it like you fucking earned it.
Not one goddamn second before.
So… it’s been a good long while since I’ve written anything. Since the last post… we’ve got a new kid! It’s been a real adventure with two – I don’t think I’ve ever been this constantly wiped out – it’s just so rare to get any genuine downtime. Used to be we could trade off, but a lot less so now, and even in the moments when Ei-Nyung’s got the two kids, it’s one of those things where the guilt of knowing she’s going to be totally overwhelmed, and I know that the feeling is the same in the opposite situation.
Still, it’s been wonderful to see J blossom as a big brother. He’s really generous & loving, and while there are definitely moments of jealousy or “regression”, he’s really taken to his new role well. He loves running over to K & giving him a big laugh – and he loves it when K smiles back at him.
What else is new since the last time? Hm. It’s been a bit strange realizing that there was this period in my life when I logged a lot of information through blogging, but now, with stuff on Twitter & Facebook, and without an easy-to-use keyboard when I’m browsing the web, there are way fewer opportunities to actually write anything that isn’t incredibly short.
That said, the smaller, incremental communication also precludes a lot of thoughts accumulating and needing to be put down in longer chunks.
So… we just got back from a vacation at Donner Lake. Gorgeous place. We got a place through VRBO, and it was a great house. The general location was a sort of wooded pine area, 5 miles or so from Donner Lake – basically exactly what I was looking for, though slightly less “in the middle of nowhere”, because Tahoe Donner is a big ol’ development with a bunch of amenities and such that are geared toward this kind of visitation. So that was odd, but still – close enough to what I was looking for.
K, J, Ei-Nyung & I were there for 5 days, and some friends came up to spend the first few days with us. Overall, just a few days of relative relaxation – though definitely having two kids around 100% of the time, and having some trouble getting a good night’s sleep meant that at least one of the days was a complete wreck where just staying awake & engaged was all that I could handle, but getting away from home was something I sorely needed.
Donner was great, but I don’t know that I’d be back any time soon – it was a little too developed & crowded for me – I think I’d like to find somewhere a little bit a.) closer and b.) a bit more off the beaten path – I’m looking for contrast, after all, and it wasn’t quite different enough from home.
Still, some really great times/memories – I went out kayaking with J, and it reminded me a LOT of spending time on the lake at the cabin my aunt used, when my cousin & I would play out in the lake. I’d love to do more of that, and am seriously looking into picking up a kayak to do that again more locally.
K was really good - he cried a lot on the trip home, but on the trip up, where traffic was horrendous (and we had to stop to charge up the car halfway up) he was *amazing*. He’s also getting way more aware of things – he knows his mom (less his dad, since I spend a lot less time with him (*weeps*)), and appeared to realize when he was *actually* home. Generally a really pleasant, good-natured kid, and a lot like J in many ways (though a.) much, much bigger, and b.) still fairly different, personality-wise) – it’s clear that they’re brothers, but not the same.
Otherwise, things are chugging along. Work’s … work.
There’s still a fair deal of work to do on the house – the interior’s basically done – I spent the last few days before we went up to Donner just reorganizing the garage, and made a TON more space, but still have a ways to go. Reorganized all my music gear, which was good. Tomorrow, a few errands to run – I might pick up one more wire rack to just up the storage space, since I think we’ve got a lot more stuff we need to store. One of these days I’ll tackle the hallway closet, but I think that’s almost another day or two worth of work to figure out what to do with what’s in there.
The few remaining house projects: Concrete work in the front (including the front stairs & walkway), concrete work up the side of the house (which we’d do at the same time as the front). Theoretically re-stucco-ing the remaining three walls of the house. Concrete work in the back, or just redoing the back patio. Also the entire backyard.
So still a reasonable amount of stuff to do.
Also gotta paint the stairwell – it’s mostly done, just have some edging, a touch of sanding, and have to pull off the railings to paint it properly. Friday, maybe? Saturday? I dunno. Was easier when J consistently took naps in the afternoon. Alas!
Anyway. Yeah. What else? Been picking up tons of boardgames. Formula D, Dreadball, The Perfect Heist, etc. Mostly Kickstarter stuff – but it’s been interesting seeing the rise of boardgames on Kickstarter. Stuff like Dreadball really feels like it’s enabled by advances in manufacturing, and it’ll be interesting to see how the bar for miniature-based games changes as 3D printing becomes progressively more commonplace.
The last thing – I really want to make this the year that some of the interior of the house gets organized, but more, I want to finally lose some of this weight, and get down to and *maintain* a weight that’s close to 200 lbs. We’d done a good job with the paleo diet, and it worked amazingly well when we stuck to it – but the catch is that with work & just trying to find things we can do in a timely fashion with the two kids, it’s been really easy to lapse ALL THE TIME. And the problem with the paleo diet is that if you do it half-assed, it’s WAY worse than almost anything else. So, back on the train, back with some discipline, and even over the last few days, I’ve seen a noticeable improvement. Give it a few more weeks, and we’ll see where we are.
I picked up a new bike attachment for J, because he no longer fits in the Wee Ride. It’s one of those things that clamps to your seatpost, and is just a handle, seat, pedals, and rear wheel. So far, it’s been good, but it is a little weird ’cause there some backlash in the clamp joint, and it’s a little hard to get used to the wobble. It’ll be interesting at some point if I end up carrying K in the Wee Ride, J on the “Afterburner” (that’s what it’s labeled – I’m sure there’s some more generic name for it), and riding around with three people. At least some time in the future, J will actually pedal. I hope.
It’s a little bit odd these days to write a blog post. It’s so easy to post incremental thoughts on Twitter, G+ or Facebook that they often end up there – but looking back over the last few years, one of the things I really like about blogging is that it’s *mine* – and it’s persistent.
I can look back over the last few years, and see what’s happened. So… what’s happened recently? Yeesh. A lot of stuff. The kiddo’s growing up quick. He’s getting bigger, talking a LOT – he talks about just about everything, and every day, his thoughts get more and more complex. It’s really, genuinely wonderful to see him learning about the world, and drawing new connections to things. He’ll say things like, “Oh! Oh! That car is blue… like our car!” Or all kinds of other, weirder things that show he’s actually looking at the details of the world, and using them to make connections.
We’re about to pull the trigger on a fairly extensive interior remodel of the house – finally repairing the bathroom. Well, not so much “repairing” as “completely changing everything about” the bathroom, but it is what it is. We’ve got more space than we know what to do with, so might as well make the things we use regularly work as well as possible.
Around April this year, Self Aware Games was acquired by Big Fish Games. That transition’s been really interesting and educational. In many ways it’s wonderful, but at the same time, I think I miss (and I really, really didn’t think this is something I’d miss) feeling *critical* to the process. I feel like I’m definitely replaceable now, and that even without me, things could continue to progress in a positive way, which is something I had my doubts about before. This is both a great thing and a very odd one, and to be totally honest, it does make me feel like something’s “missing” that I valued. It’s just an adjustment, though – in all, the sum total of the change is wildly positive.
Let’s see – what else? A few months ago, we went to the Big Island of Hawaii, and it was awesome. Just totally awesome. We got to spend time with friends, see somewhere new, and the kiddo loved it. Later this year we’ll probably swing up to Ottawa for the X-mas break, and see my family up there, and introduce them to the kiddo, which will be excellent. I’d like to go to Australia next, but I have no idea when that might work out. Maybe I can convince work to send me (and the family) to PAX Australia. Ha.
I did go to PAX last weekend, which was pretty darned fun. Intense, and busy as hell – I haven’t been that wiped out in a very long time, but we got to see a ton of people interact with Casino & Fleck, and one thing was fairly clear – PAX is definitely the crowd to push Fleck to when it’s ready for a bigger audience. Folks who saw it almost universally “got” it.
Otherwise, stuff continues to chug along. Been playing some games – Transformers: Fall of Cybertron was excellent. Sleeping Dogs is fun so far. Playing a bunch of stuff on the iPad, from Bastion to still cranking away at games on Hero Academy.
Been cooking stuff from Ferran Adria’s “Family Meals”, which have been awesome so far. Picked up the book on the recommendation of a friend who I haven’t seen in more than 10 years, but hung out with a few weeks ago. It was great to see him (and another friend who I hadn’t seen for a similarly long time), and the cookbook is absolutely excellent.